I'm an 18 year old British girl who struggles with severe Anxiety. As a result, I struggle to engage well in social situations, meet new people, explain myself, speak up or go outside often. I find myself unable to cope when alone or on public transport and it also affects my job (I work in retail, so it's all about customer service and interaction) and my performance in college.
I really really want to go to University next year but I struggle with pulling decent grades from my course units (I'm doing a BTEC Extended Diploma in Art and Design, focusing on fashion. ) because I constantly worry that the work I do wont be good enough as the other kids in class and when I get low grades its a serious blow to my self esteem and usually ends in an emotional breakdown or Anxiety attack.
I need advice on how to pull my weight in college this year and how to motivate myself to work harder than anyone else, as I'm aiming for Distinctions. I also need help with negativity and how to stop having such a negative attitude towards my work. My tutor has already discussed it with me but I'm not sure how to snap out of it. I'm rarely satisfied with anything I create or draw and I get bored of what i'm doing very easily. I've got my heart set on going to this one specific University to do fashion design next year.
I just really need some tips on how to totally smash this year, and maybe some help with dealing with Anxiety in an academic situation. I feel like it's the barrier between me and reaching my goals and I know I'm capable of being a high achiever because my grades and quality of work used to be incredible when I was younger and I didn't struggle with Anxiety.
Will greatly appreciate any sort of response x